20 years ago....

This year marks 20 years that my father passed away, June 14, 1988. I can't believe it has been that long. I have been contemplated as to what to do, in that I mean, do I go to the gravesight? I personally dont believe in visiting a grave only because I was always taught they are not there anyways. But being that I have never seen the grave I thought that I would pay a visit. (Little closure). I am not one to memorialize someone to the point that they become an idol so this little trip is just so that I can see what this grave looks like. I honestly would like to see my Rodriguez side of the family as well as that brings me more memories rather than just sitting by the grave. So I am planning, not for my birthday week (which is when he past) because it is father's day weekend and also my 30th birthday, something with some of the family to see if we can get together. We shall see.....

I have learned over the years that people have a different way of mourning some that are healthy and some that just drags on for years (unhealthy). In my own personal life, I deal with my mourning before the person even passes away. By this I mean, I take care of business while they are alive. I spend time with them and appreciate them. When they do pass on the mourning process wont take years on end. But for me it takes months. I believe some people mourn longer because they have regrets and guilt, which is sad. That is why I take the approach that I established. I couldnt live with regrets or guilt...

RIP Antonio Rodriguez 1946-1988