Just sitting here....

Right now I am in my living room on my computer with my mother and Richie watching "National Treasure". I thought I would jot down some thoughts that are running through my head at the moment.

Today has seemed to be an unproductive day for me. I went to work and decided since there was freezing rain coming our way I would go home early to avoid getting killed on the road. I got home and my kids were already down for a nap. So I had lunch with Artie and just hung out for the rest of the day.

In relaxing I was thinking about relationships and how complicated they can be if you are laxidazical (is that how you spell that) with them. It is hard work having any kind of relationship, but it is very important to have them and establish them. The one thing I can figure out is people and how they come up with their own theories about them. Certain people how different standards on relationship which seems to complicate the issue even more. My theory on it is why not just be honest, hospitable and reliable. How difficult is that? Oh well. I also have the capability to ignore certain people that I had relationships with that are not benefitting me and to be honest I dont feel a great loss. My lil sister asked me recently how do I have that capability to just tell someone right off the bat how I feel and or right them off if they are getting on my "nerves". I just simply told her when you get walked on as much as I have in my short 30 year lifetime you just tend to appreciate the people that have a positive influence in your life and dont require the negative ones to be around to survive.

So simply put if you dont bring any positive force in my life, you wont see me around...I will pray for you that God would change your heart but I dont have to be in your way to get hurt.....